Random rotten reflections...

i have been eating chocolates at a rate which would put the evil H1N1 virus to shame! in fact, my Diary Milk intake on a normal day (let's not talk about abnormal days when hair on my scalp stands at 90 degrees to the hemispherical plane of my cerebrum... and spider legs & tadpoles are savoured by my delicate tongue for refreshment!!), far exceeds the number of times Rakhi bhabhi appears on television, the number of statues erected by Maya aunty or the number of tweets made by the Tech-savvy minister Tharoor everyday


A bunch... nah! a heap of relatives are arriving from Tvm tomorrow.
Wish they made relatives of the finer healthier blend nowadays.. ones who would just let out a yawn, on being told the fact that their host (moi ofc!) hasnt an inkling of the fuzzy process of making coffee (or tea or rum for that matter!), ones who dont really cough n choke n die of stroke, when informed that their charming host eats roasted peanuts for lunch, inhales fresh air for breakfast and gargles n drinks Oatmeal for dinner... and proposes to share the same menu with her esteemed guests, ones who wouldnt stare aghast into white space just because their darling host starts fumbling for coins & half notes in her torn n tattered purse... and mutters curses onto the US government for not tackling the global economic slowdown, the moment the taxi driver produces a bill of 2854 bucks, after an exhausting trip to Mysore!
Sighhh... "relatives" are made in hell i suppose! and sent to earth for Probation!!


i have been feeling like a cat on hot bricks every passing day. The "fire" to quit my current job in this well known firm and move on to another (for better or for worse) has been burning fiercely in my bosom for months now... i just cant push myself to crawl into office everyday without dropping tears all over the garden encompassing the campus & watering the tiny blooms all along the path!! and yeah... the gardener must be quite a blessed soul, methinks! :( (he must be thinking the same thing abt me...hmmm..)

Renowned Malayalam actor Murali bid farewell to this world today... A fine mature artist, i have seen & admired his roles ever since i was a kid... His demise is certainly a loss to Malayalam cinema, which is rather undergoing slow & subtle metamorphosis... with a good number of crap movies releasing every year!! Also disheartening is the sudden death of an efficient director/script writer Lohithadas... A red alert to all serious & sensible directors of Mollywood! Dont let this industry be lost in the great Bermuda triangle of modernization / commercialization. Looking forward to a renaissance in Malayalam (Indian to be precise) cinema in the days to come...


Bangalore is celebrating a bandh this Sunday, to commemorate the erection err... installation of Thiruvalluvar's statue at Ulsoor. why the Tamil poet's figurine has to be placed in a so-called hi-fi cosmopolitan city as Bangalore, when he or none of his relatives were born/brought up at Namma city and he already stands 133 ft tall at Kanyakumari, is beyond my gray cells's capacity! Hon CM says it is a sign of goodwill b/w neighbouring states... and he too is gonna err... unveil a Kannada poet's statue at Chennai! while this has raised the blood pressure & cholestrol of members of Karnataka Rakshana Vedike and they are hell bent on creating a hullabaloo on the day the two-liner poet's statue is unveiled here!!
sighhh... if at all this nation wants to foresee progress in the near future, the first thing to eradicate & penalize should be the statue-installation syndrome that has caught almost every ruling politician in this country!! why cant they get it into their fat head that it is the tax payers' hard earned money that they are throwing away for their cheap & vested political game plays!!


There is always this fear of writing my personal moments/thoughts in this space... not sure who all are likely to read it & scoop my intestines out :-| the perils of being a celebrity.. sighhh! :P :P :P
but seriously, there are so many things happening in my life every single day... so many ups n downs n U turns that i would like to scribble yonder... but most of the stuff has to be filtered n censored before hitting this blog, for fear of adverse reactions (which again cannot be detailed here! :roll:)

hmmmm... life moves on like a tortoise injected with clinical anaesthesia... and every moment seems to be frozen in time... i am in dire need of a "secret" blog (i can hear somebody chuckling there! ;-)) to pour out lot of suppressed emotions n anectodes... hope i dont dont end up owning a 100 million blogspots by the end of this year!! :-|

Huh! Humph!! Hoo!

Friday afternoon, rather early evening... and i have still not got into the mood of doing any constructive work... assigned to me from folks across the seas... Hangover as they call it.. Of what?!! is the question. Neither did i have a spectacular week so far nor am i expecting any exceptional phenomenon to materialize and brighten my otherwise-mundane weekends...it is just that am unable to overcome the inertia of rest... to which my infernal mind has succumbed...passionately...losing all sense of discretion & direction... sinking into blissful oblivion...even blogging has become a burden to me... im getting more impatient & hysterical day by day..all i want to do now is.. pack my bags, wear my boots & start off on a silent vacation to some sunken green valley... lost amidst the pale clouds & green woods... stopping by only to respond to the melodies of the bubbling stream...

not a second passes without me thinking about the misery of being involved in a profession which appeals to me only as much as Velupillai Prabhakaran appeals to Mahinda Rajapakshe... oh yeah! that reminds me.. i have been just reading Srilankan history, Mahavamsa & such other chronicles, roots of Srilankan civilization & colonization, beginning of ethnics violence... and reading only these for the past 2-3 days!

Of late i have been adopting a no-contact stand with most of the folks. i have always been nurturing this suspicion that whether i stay in touch or not, these so-called friends / relatives / acquaintances wouldnt care a damn abt it! and my refrain from calls,mails,chats,scraps etc has only strengthened the fortress of this growing suspicion... the last time i made an effort to shut out all my connection gateways, i had lost a treasured relationship (why it was treasured in the first place, i fail to understand now...) Anyway im glad to be off-line right now and talk to only the select few that would value my company...

My brother-in-law's marriage is in the offing and i seem to develop all sorts of phobias about going to that heavily-crowded extravaganza called wedding! i can never comprehend why a hundred thousand odd people gather to witness an occassion for which most of them care two hoots about (if not for the entertainment & food freely available at the expense of the bride's parents!!)

Writing this piece of stuff has been really really difficult and challenging... (now dont raise your eyebrows & drop your lower jaws!!) what with two equally useless computers at home sans the internet connection (which has been denied to us due to 'lack of boxes' at this age of 2009... and there sits Dr.Abdul Kalam dreaming about a progressive developed super power India by 2020!! sigh..) and there is no possibility of one writing two lines successively without being interrupted, watched & read by a multitude of co-workers at office!! i have this odd doubt whether i am writing a small simple blog at office... or having an intercourse right there in the middle of my cubicle surrounded by a multitude of "resources"!! Humph! (told you... not to be reading those stupid Shobha De books!! 8-O) whatever... i am glad to have scribbled at least a few incoherent thoughts from my hapless mind... and aspire to do so every single day, even if it means "stretching & straining" myself till the fall of the night! After all, what is life without breaking free from the monotony & cacophony of day to day existence... and spurting out some vagrant, disciplined thoughts from the interiors of the cerebral hemispheres!!
Gosh! i am so relieved now :wide grin: