"i am a substandard writer. whatever i write nowadays is nothing but garbage". this is the thought jogging in my mind for quite some time now.... feeling worse & worse everytime this thought attacks me... Well, im not saying that i was creating magic with my pen earlier... but the style & content of writing has deteriorated much nowadays... :( i am not judging my posts based on the visit count or the number & kind of comments that i receive.... i know for myself that there is something so morbid & sullen about my posts..... that leaves a bad taste in the mouth (rather eyes) after reading it!! But, anyway... that doesnt mean im gonna quit writing. i simply cannot do that! its too late now :D Thinking on these lines, i am trying to figure out... if not writing... then what is it that i am good at!
Reading - the last time i read a book was before Obama started campaigning for the polls (which must be somewhere around 3rd century BC.. errr... BO!!) :P i have firmly stood by my resolution of not buying any more books, unless & until i finish reading the stuff on my shelf. It is a pity that i dont find time (Oh really?) to flip through the pages of even a 'light' PGW, that has been lying next to my bed for ages... as a place holder for my mobile, pen, keys, torch light, hair pins, Amrutanjan etc... sighhhh! i should resume reading, before i forget the number of alphabets in the English language (26... when i last heard it, right?)
Photography - This is another dead hobby (iam used to calling it passion!) of mine which badly needs recharging just like my hibernating camera in the bureau locker. Yeah! thats where i keep the little Olympus micro mini fella, hidden from the lights & shadows of the outside world. And he gets 'an exposure', only when i decide to set out on an outing to some distant land! not that i could come up with some scintillating shots everytime i gripped the periphery of the lens.... but i could see through this third eye the angles & colurs & dreams of my own world! Though, buying a better model of camera with latest features might help ignite this passion further.... this has remained a distant dream.... thanks to the photographer in me... who cant settle for anything less than a trendy expensive DSLR!! :(
Music - Naah! not singing or tugging at any strings or hitting hard on any percussions!! just lending an ear to the pleasant sounds incarnating from filmdom or albums or kutcheris and involuntarily swaying my head rhythmically to the raagas,thaalas, layas & aalaps! i am not doing even that nowadays. My craving desire to join a vocal music class has been lingering like a leech on the interiors of my mind.... ever since i tasted the juice of music & learnt my inability to produce an array of humanly acceptable sounds with my vocal chords!! :( i had carefully altered the word "singing" in my profile to the cliched "listening to music" long back! but, even listening doesnt seem appropriate now... it is mere hearing that i am doing, if at all some soulful sounds drop into my ears at times, by accident!! No efforts or accomplishments beyond that. :(
Gardening - Well im extremely devoted to this piece of 'art', if you would be kind enough to call "looking down curiously from my balcony at the plants-seller & listening intuitively to his conversation with my house owner, silently spectating the scene of my neighbour watering the saplings in his garden, gazing moodily at my landlord's kid playing with the earthworms in the soil" as gardening in the best sense!! :D
Cooking - This is one practise which i can claim to have been faring well at... the prime reason being i luvvvvvvvvv eating! and there is no soul within 1000metres radius... who can provide me with unlimited quantities of varied delicacies every day! Necessity being the mother of invention... gave way to my culinary experiments in the kitchen, and having a mouth-capable-of-engulfing-any-palatable-stuff-irrespective-of-taste-smell-&-appearance (yeah, that belongs to my honourable husband! :P) handy has proved to be a boon for me!! just chop, slice, saute, fry, boil, burn, garnish & serve to this ready-to-eat human being called husband, then depending on his survival & sustenance aspects.... start tasting the food on my own. so far... so good. no suicides. no murders. i have been doing a decent job.
hmmm.... let me wind up this ultra long post now.... and get back to the ever-boring but bread-winning activity.... the art of coding(before my PM decides to send me on the next Chandrayaan expedition)!!!! :bleeeeeeding eyes: